I have a problem, and I need your advice...
I am the type of person who loves to make others happy. I love putting a smile on others faces, and try really hard to be sensitive to everyone, even people I might not even know or be close to.
I also have a really difficult time dealing with people who don't like me. Whenever someone is mad at me or mean or just being a bitch to me, I don't make that about them, it's me, it's something I am doing, something I am doing wrong. I have a hard time with the fact that there are people that are just jerks in this world, for no other reason that they are, well, jerks. I'm not saying that I am never mean to anyone, but I think we all know that there are people who you can be sweet to them and they will still hate you, and the nicer you are the meaner they get.
I work with one of these people.
This girl (we'll call her Sally) isn't exactly mean to me, she is just really good at passive aggressive behavior, like most women are. Whenever I come on the unit I say hi to everyone and I always get the normal pleasantries from everyone, but her. She never talks to me unless I talk to her first. If we are in a group of people, she will be overly friendly with everyone else and will ignore me.
Sound a little grade school doesn't it? The sad part is that I am letting it bother me as much as I am. She's not worth it, she's just a jerk. I wouldn't even want to be friends with a person like that, so why should I even care? I am a strong, independent, beautiful woman with a husband who adores her, a family that loves her and good friends to share my life with. So why is it that the fact that one girl is out-shadowing all of that?
I don't know how many of you watch Sex and the City but there is an episode where Carrie meets a girlfriends of Aidan's after she broke up with him the second time. Nina (the next girlfriend) makes a face that Carrie obsesses about over the entire episode. She can't stop thinking about what Nina thinks about her and she lets this take over her whole life. By the end she realized that it really isn't even about Nina, it was her. She was just being too critical of herself.
I guess that's easier said than done. I am a good person. If people don't want me to be in their life, that's their loss....I do believe that.
So why am I still obsessing over this girl??