Frustrations

I have struggled with my desire to be in a new job, pretty much since I started this current job. For those of you that don't know the abridged version of my career history is this. When I was in college I wanted to be an ED nurse, I even had a window into the ED of the hospital I was working in Rhode Island as a student nurse; the largest ED in the state (I know I know small state but still it was a level one trauma ED with almost 100 beds, much bigger than even the biggest ED in San Diego).

But Kyle got on one knee (which I knew he would) that April before graduation and everything changed. I quit my job in Providence and moved with him to San Diego. Out here in August of last year there were NO ED jobs ANYWHERE so I started applying for med-surge jobs because I needed the work. I got hired onto my unit at the end of August and have been there ever since. Now I have a year of med-surge experience and am looking to transfer to the ED. I know that, my manager knows that, everyone knows. They say it's only a matter of time - but they don't quantify how long exactly is a "matter" of time.

Tonight one of the other nurses I work with (who started as an RN AFTER me) told me that her transfer to the ED got approved. Now I guess since she was a student nurse on my unit for a year before she passed her NCLEX-RN makes her senior to me????? Even though she has only been on the floor as an RN for 6 months? WTF is up with that?

It is much more difficult to get into a specialty in Nursing now because of the economy. No one wants to hire someone with no experience in the field because it costs so much to train them. The entire ride home from work I was fuming, when am I going to get a break? when is my turn for career advancement?

The more I thought about it, ironically, the calmer I became. This is in Gods hands, he will find the right job for me. This is the ONLY time I will have to wait like this, once I get experience I won't have this problem anymore. My time will come, and in the meantime I still have a job that I am learning from. Everyday I get more experience as a med-surge nurse I can use later. I can keep building my resume. I can do this..

Next month we are voting on 12 hour shifts. If that passes and I get on days that will be so much better for when kyle gets back, and I will be able to tolerate staying on the unit for a few more months.

Man I am frustrated.......